Exhausted

I didn’t even have to skate today and I’m beat! Back at my cousin’s for the night and curled up in bed with my laptop, catching up on my facebooking.  

There was something oddly calming about watching the other skaters today.  I now really feel like I want to get out and skate a good program, and there’s nothing I can do other than that.  I can’t think about results or what jumps/spins other people are doing, I just have to do what I know I can. When I was a kid I never got nervous for competition, but then in college I became a wreck.  I’m hoping this awesome zen attitude holds through the night and 11-year-old Kelly shows up tomorrow instead of 19-year-old Kelly!